You. Yes, you!

Are you sure or certain about where are we going? You sure, Nikhil? Someone whispered. Don’t guess who but feel. We live our lives looking at life through the window. Isn’t it? A reflection of everything we want to be, everything we want to achieve and all we see is a haphazard or a straight road ahead. We are never certain about the second to come, let the three decades to pass. But, looking through the window, through those uncertainties, we learn to live our lives in undying hope. I think so? Maybe you too. Embedded in those uncertainties is the fear of things going wrong, of not earning worth the hours you toiled everyday, fear of meeting failures. You fight through the bad days to earn the best days of life. I did. I can tell you that.

A bit, nostalgic of the past you lost, certainties about the future to come, paused momentarily in the present.
Embrace those uncertainties, I say. Title your chapters your way and give the name of your book by yourself. You’ll see a better and more lovable you. I had my favourite chocolate and tasted the sweetness of your and my thoughts with a positive connect. But, who brought the chocolate? 😉

In between the pages

In between the pages of book, lying down at one corner of the bed, I heard some thunderstorms. Yes, it was already quarter to one. I could hear the rain drops. Sometimes, these rain drops try to speak a lot, maybe either I should go to sleep or hear them out. They might want to share something, my subconscious mind said. I was all ears for the latter. I was on page 38, you could get some idea of her birthday date by adding or subtracting few numbers to the page. There was a WhatsApp message; I read it a bit late when I crossed the 53rd page.

Are you awake? That read.

Yes, I am.

Silence

. . . . .

I started with the 54th page and sometime later there was another mesaage, Want to speak?

I am in the middle of a very interesting plot, the climax.

I’ll wait.

It’ll take time and I can sleep with the book on my chest. Kindly, have a good sleep.

I want to discuss a book or maybe something else.

And, may I ask what would that be?

Silence.

. . . . .

Started again with the book, it’s two in the morning now. I was getting sleep but I thought I’ll drop a message that we’ll discuss it tomorrow. I texted her back.

1 minute. I am calling. Let me hear you.

Okay.

We were on call but there were no talks. It feels like we are listening to our breaths?

A sweet giggle.

Okay, you should sleep now. Wait, I said…

. . . . . . Do you still want more breaths to be heard along with the rain droplets and the sweet winds?

Maybe yes. Or maybe no. I don’t feel the wind.

I’ll try to make it more lighter than my breath to make you feel more and understand the aura of wind and the sweetness it carries.

That would be more than beautiful. But, wait, my ♥️ getting more beats. Are you trying to transfer some of the excitement too? I asked.

A whispering smile with a sign of a YES.

Let’s sleep now. It’s near to 3 AM. ‘Night

Its been a rainy day throughout the day and there were guests pouring up too. Got some dishes and sweets ready and was having a conversation with them. A text, can you come over?

Now? I asked.

Yes.

I am with the guests and I got work to do.

I got your favourite book, I’ll read it for you.

Okay. I’ll see you in 35 minutes.

♥️

I smiled and took a leave from the guest place and the conversation and promised to join after a few hours. Yes, they’d a plan to stay over.

**Dinggggg** the door bell rang. She greeted with a warm welcome with some tea and pakoras (inflated potato chips here)

You want to leave early? She asked.

Yes.

Looked into my eyes and asked with the help of her blinking eyelashes, do you?

*Numb*

Smiled and got the book. Do you want to come over to my room? Or sofa is comfortable?

Sofa is fine.

But, I want to read it staying very close to you.

Would you be able to read the whole book, I mean 340 pages.

Count on my breaths, darling.

I felt the warmth, I missed. Can we try finishing the book with the same warmth?

My room maybe?

**Numb**

You want to say something, she prompted.

Nothing. The warmth, the pure soul, non altruistic approach, the proper touch was missing for quite sometime and different thoughts ran through the nerves of my mind. True people exists with a proper meaning and pure soul, the mind gave a hint. But, doing good to others is what I believe.

She replied, remember, when people act shady, betray your trust, have double faces just allow them to do so. Their choices are a direct reflection of who they are, not who you are. Don’t ever sink to their level.

Soon after, held my hands. Looked into my eyes…

And?

The pages continued…

PS: The inverter was on and it made a beep sound. It was charged? Isn’t it? 😉

Tea Talks

I just got a bit late today for my evening walk after work but as usual the weather was calling out different names in the form of loud sounds; Thunderstorms! Not again, I have to go for the evening walk. Dressed up with sport attire with a feeling of getting drenched today, I made a decision to go. You want to get drenched asked my heart? The mind responded with a big YES!

With an aim to finish three miles, I just stopped by half a mile and asked myself whether I should complete rest of the laps? I was constantly watching the fight between my heart and mind, they were trying to convince whom? Me or my soul or my belief or my trust? Well they were trying to have ice-creams of all the flavours with a bronze spoon. I tried with my belief and trust and tried for more miles. I was half a way through. It was a sense of great accomplishment and great delight to my mind, heart and corresponding their beliefs and trust.

Was it all by mind? Or was it all by heart? It’s everything on our mind, the story said and the confusing conclusion remarked upon. You think and you become that. You want to be a billionaire in the next second, you are one, who is stopping you! It’s all by the thoughts played in your mind. The mind is your beautiful movie theater which lets you see many movies in a single screen or may be different ones, depends. You want to be an Oscar awarded individual; you are one, awarded by your mind!

My walk was coming to an end and I did engage in a conversation with many of the evening walkers regarding thoughts and the mind. The mind and thoughts to them is mere a flow of air which they allowed to enter in their mind(s), if they want to, else they were open to travel with another air which had less troubles. Talks and talks were handed over to me, my friend, significant other and some strangers, the same day we started discussing over mind, heart and corresponding beliefs and trust.

Did I tell you that, you are a part of my beautiful story where you are the actor/actress performing a great movie with a powerful message? Did I also tell you, that, this, was only a cup of tea that made me think of a beautiful story like this between you and me playing together, with our thoughts, mind, and our heart, yes, we are in the same see-saw looking at each other with the same smile thinking of crafting a new story for you and for me and for everyone to bring out peaceful minds and happiness.

So is it the only the ‘tea talking’ ? Or ‘talks over’ a cup of tea? 😉

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The Jog

The day started with birds chirping around and with a warm ray of light sneaking through the window. I was getting ready for the early morning jog and there in the bench I saw her waiting for someone. She was all dressed up in the jog-suit and a good pair of sport shoes. I passed by and heard her calling, hey, let’s jog!?

So you usually get up this early or was it today that the weather is okay and you felt like starting? No, she said. She said, amidst the past conversation (reference: my earlier blogpost, ‘being one’) of glittering stars and a cozy blanket, I thought of joining the very next day to see the sunrise and share a common smile. Passed a smile at the same time for the thoughts and words she had said.

Inside me, you and all of us, there is a kid who wants to play to the fullest and being loved at the same time, I shared. She responded positively and added if the kid wants to explore more, touch the smiles, touch the emotions, touch the heart(s) of people a specific set of values and connect should be there, spiritually, mentally and emotionally. I agreed. You, me and everyone always want to explore to the fullest with the help of the kid inside us and should wear a true warm smile for everyone and for everything. The conversation went on and on discussing life and what do you actually seek? ( More from my posts, ‘what do you seek’) Is it true love, true feelings, true emotions, empathy, loyalty or behaviour? If the answer is ‘yes’ to all of these then one must go with the right person leaving all superficial words and dancing to the whims of some other fact which is engrossed as a fact in our heart, she said.

Yes, that’s life and the way you should deal with it. Happiness comes from within and when you have some set of values which shouldn’t be torn under any circumstances. Finding your own happiness and playing with your own child (here, happiness for me) will make you the creator of your own sunrise and we’ll jog together! 😊

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Being one

It was all dark here today,

The weather had gone for a toss this day,

Finishing my book this night, hoping for the electricity to remain tight,

There she came amidst this night, asked me how are you holding your sleep this wide.

Amazed to see her sparking eyes all over again,

Astonished and asked her when did she arrived here again,

She reminded me of old times, and waited for the perfect time,

Holding hands together gave me the relief of a comfortable gain.

I’ll love you through the winters, through summers, rains and fog,

I only want to be more us and more growing for you as my favorite job,

I am here again for you, she said; holding you and seeing the stars with your eyes,

Let me be with you for the whole night with the glittery eyes.

You said you love me, I want you to come in and to believe again,

Let me remind you of my previous pain and less comfortable gain,

I had trust, I had faith in us, I did fight for us, I did everything that could be us,

But, who knew, for her, this ‘us’ was just an unnecessary fuss.

She thought, she smiled and she gave a warm hug,

She didn’t want to lose me for an empty jug,

Sat with a glass of RUM this night,

Made sure, I was in her complete mind.

Asked me to not give a single thought on the fishy ones in the relationship,

They would only make no king out of a warship,

May whatever kingdom they carry, is solely in their gene(s) to betray,

To not think of these false types should be our first tray.

I laughed and thought whether in all of this, was I the only suspect,

With a peck on my lips, she said, let me make you all of this forget,

It’s very easy to forget a false person, she said with a strong gut;

I nod my head in agreement, keeping myself shut.

Wearing a face of true love, loyalty, and compassion isn’t easy,

For everyone in the universe to apply, she said.

For how long one will survive with the same traits,

Universe is there for them to reply with the same shades.

Let’s concentrate on our stars this night, she said, looking at my eyes,

For me that was a pure and comfortable delight,

She smiled and asked for a wish, seeing the star,

Draped in a blanket was the smiling moving star.

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The Thread

A true relationship is two unperfect couple refusing to give up on each other.

Life is not being famous, rich, popular or perfect. It is about how real you are, humble, loyal and kind.

Rest everything comes cooked up and more pretending with a fake face and dubious personality containing various lies.

Similarly, go for an exercise daily. 😉

The ‘Us’ Connect

It was a rainy day when I first saw you,

I was wishing for a day just to receive a message from you,

With no connects just to hoping the best,

There was a lucky day when my wish came true and I was at rest.

Holding the wish, I prayed to God,

Never make us fall apart was my chord,

Happy with the chord we both went to the lord,

Who knew that would become a difficult sword.

With every star, again I made a wish,

To cure everything with a 💓 kiss,

We are sure we would fill this jar again with love,

Tells her elephant with a smiling tusk.

She holds her favorite teddy brown and white,

And, wants us to be bonded tight

We oath that we would never let this happen,

With open arms, I, want to make ‘us’ happen.

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The warmth

They’d met after a long time, this season, they both were enjoying the weather, the cosiness, maybe they wanted to see each other right next or curling around. They actually missed each other a lot; the warmth and the affection came along. They thought it’s only a few months they are together and now they started feeling each other in the eyes, 💓 and soul. They started wanting each other more and wished for the feeling to not end anyways.

Early morning, without a message he woke up next to her and she made a smile and said “Good morning”, yes, a good morning, was that enough? Yes, for me it was. But, again she made an attempt to curl him up with no space and allowed no light frame to enter. So, was it all dark? Yes. He loved the warmth and felt her next to him. Is this love? You can say so. They both wanted to see each other every moment so well that they actually made an attempt to stick, just like a glue-stick, but here it was more like a caring-stick.

They came more close and discussed everything openly and also felt the warmth when they were low. He was all open to her and she was all ears. There was an affection, love, deep bond and emotional flow between them and they loved every bit of it. Hence, for the person who is your breath you should get yourself completely immersed in the pool of love with him/her and feel the emotions, be more connected, fight for your him/her, just don’t ‘let it go’ for your happiness or for both, it’s completely fine to think sometimes to let go, but tell me do really want to ‘let go’, don’t get convinced by anyone or your mind, there would be many thoughts of letting him/her go because of this or that and end up diverting our mind with other things; which is weak and temporary, but at the end it only matters that ‘s/he is the one for you’, whom you loved at the first place accepting all the odds/negatives/positives. The love could be your blanket in chilly winters when you don’t want to let it go or maybe your love. You might feel the chill in your body or a chill in your love. Don’t let it go!

Now, did I tell you, that, this story happened to be my last night’s dream or a reality or love with my own blanket in the winter season? 🙂

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Flowing thoughts

I started my morning with a sip of tea and fresh air amidst the woods, greeting the birds, meeting fellow morning walkers, dogs and cats. There is a sense of belonging when you are immersed with such a surrounding and flow of thoughts.

I saw one of the dogs following me throughout my run. I sat down asking him whether he wanted something but he was constantly looking at me with some hope or sense of care and love. It reminded me of ourselves when we think of a very special person for holding hands and sitting near the cliff discussing everything and then we are left alone. Somewhere or the other it’s lost. Sometimes, being with a person who needs you the most, dreamt of you the most for many things, promised you everything, gave his/her heart in your hands, is the person you should be with irrespective of whatever things happen, at the end of the day s/he is ‘yours’ and only ‘yours’. In general, for a better and fruitful friendship/love/relationship in every phase, as seen, experienced and also heard from others, the five repeating words, loyalty, non-cheating, not being altruistic, staying truthful and non-betraying behaviour comes everytime and is truly accepted and loved in the sense of soul satisfaction but if you find/think any of these ‘not’ existing or any opposites then talk about it; if you get a negation, just let them think themselves these questions, maybe in seclusion, that, are they actually good as a ‘person’ first to do all of these, just for a mere change/altruism/some modern behaviour? Does the inner soul with which they once loved, maybe, gives them freedom to treat the emotions of other person like this?

Once a behaviour of leaving others like this, is always a behaviour. If one ever loved/considered you as a life partner at the first place, they wouldn’t consider you as a stranger at the first place. Did they ever loved you? Believe in yourself and pour more and more positive thoughts in you. You are very good and a true person. There are very less persons out here in the planet who actually put up so much for you, don’t ever leave ’em because of any reasons. Remember, if you truly care/love a person, their mistakes never ever change your feelings, it’s only the mind which gets angry and forces decisions but your heart always care and loves. Discuss and discuss for a solution. Things can be worked out well and with happiness and we should forgive.

Similarly, ‘we’ in the nature should think more and more about protecting the trees and animals they also have feelings and emotions. We should keep our environment clean so as to pour and get fresh air, clean surroundings, more happiness to everyone.

I believe, each one of us should go for a morning walk to keep himself or herself fit and active as getting up early morning not only triggers your neural net inside your mind for the rest of the day but also fills you with immense energy to carry out other tasks wearing a warm smile. These morning air not only fills you with positivity but also nourishes your cells throughout.

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Being with someone

If someone truly wants to be with you, breathe with you, they will do anything in their power to be with you. There will be no games. There will be no words with hidden meanings. No endless nights, where you just see the messages and letters again and again to join your thought process for a positive bent. You won’t have to figure all this out as their words and actions would convey their behaviour and love for you.

You fight, you cry and you hope for the person to be with you because you loved this person to the moon and back. But, if the person truly loves you, s/he will ignore the worldly statements, try not to say, try not to hurt you everytime with mixed feelings, emotions and other things. S/he would stick only to the soul – filled with pure love and nothing else.

We should never let go a person with whom you counted your life together as ‘us’. You should never ever leave his/her hand; Afterall, it’s all love and deep compassion with which you connected. If someone wants to be with you, truly with all 💓, madly and emotionally, they will be with you.

All beautiful relationships do not exactly depend on how well we know each other, but it depends on how well we manage the misunderstanding and unite again. Preserve and don’t let go your loved ones. Life is short.

Take care. Keep smiling 🙂

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