Life

I don’t have a wish to be liked by everyone,
You know me well, that’s enough,
The good knows me so good and the bad knows me bad,
People know me just as per their need and head.

Life is beautiful yet interesting, evenings aren’t spent well and the years pass by,
Sometimes life seems like a race,
You win to win over your dear and loved ones,
You lose to lose over your dear and loved ones.

I sit on the mud sometimes,
I sometimes don’t like the reach people show,
But, I’ve learnt it from the rivers,
To keep flowing and love your show.

I am happy and I try to make others happy,
I am careless sometimes for myself but I do care for you,
I know I don’t have my air to flow with you,
Still, it’s good to be friends with you.

Bought a watch to see the time and its beauty,
Time was like a glue stick to me, to run and never fall of her duty,
Thought of building a house and living in peace,
The wants of my house made me a global bee.

There was a time when you used to wake up smiling in the morning,
Today the evenings are left with a non smiling face,
We’ve came so far with the help to maintain our relations,
And, we forgot to hide our pains with the same emotions.

© Nikhil Kundu

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In between the pages

In between the pages of book, lying down at one corner of the bed, I heard some thunderstorms. Yes, it was already quarter to one. I could hear the rain drops. Sometimes, these rain drops try to speak a lot, maybe either I should go to sleep or hear them out. They might want to share something, my subconscious mind said. I was all ears for the latter. I was on page 38, you could get some idea of her birthday date by adding or subtracting few numbers to the page. There was a WhatsApp message; I read it a bit late when I crossed the 53rd page.

Are you awake? That read.

Yes, I am.

Silence

. . . . .

I started with the 54th page and sometime later there was another mesaage, Want to speak?

I am in the middle of a very interesting plot, the climax.

I’ll wait.

It’ll take time and I can sleep with the book on my chest. Kindly, have a good sleep.

I want to discuss a book or maybe something else.

And, may I ask what would that be?

Silence.

. . . . .

Started again with the book, it’s two in the morning now. I was getting sleep but I thought I’ll drop a message that we’ll discuss it tomorrow. I texted her back.

1 minute. I am calling. Let me hear you.

Okay.

We were on call but there were no talks. It feels like we are listening to our breaths?

A sweet giggle.

Okay, you should sleep now. Wait, I said…

. . . . . . Do you still want more breaths to be heard along with the rain droplets and the sweet winds?

Maybe yes. Or maybe no. I don’t feel the wind.

I’ll try to make it more lighter than my breath to make you feel more and understand the aura of wind and the sweetness it carries.

That would be more than beautiful. But, wait, my ♥️ getting more beats. Are you trying to transfer some of the excitement too? I asked.

A whispering smile with a sign of a YES.

Let’s sleep now. It’s near to 3 AM. ‘Night

Its been a rainy day throughout the day and there were guests pouring up too. Got some dishes and sweets ready and was having a conversation with them. A text, can you come over?

Now? I asked.

Yes.

I am with the guests and I got work to do.

I got your favourite book, I’ll read it for you.

Okay. I’ll see you in 35 minutes.

♥️

I smiled and took a leave from the guest place and the conversation and promised to join after a few hours. Yes, they’d a plan to stay over.

**Dinggggg** the door bell rang. She greeted with a warm welcome with some tea and pakoras (inflated potato chips here)

You want to leave early? She asked.

Yes.

Looked into my eyes and asked with the help of her blinking eyelashes, do you?

*Numb*

Smiled and got the book. Do you want to come over to my room? Or sofa is comfortable?

Sofa is fine.

But, I want to read it staying very close to you.

Would you be able to read the whole book, I mean 340 pages.

Count on my breaths, darling.

I felt the warmth, I missed. Can we try finishing the book with the same warmth?

My room maybe?

**Numb**

You want to say something, she prompted.

Nothing. The warmth, the pure soul, non altruistic approach, the proper touch was missing for quite sometime and different thoughts ran through the nerves of my mind. True people exists with a proper meaning and pure soul, the mind gave a hint. But, doing good to others is what I believe.

She replied, remember, when people act shady, betray your trust, have double faces just allow them to do so. Their choices are a direct reflection of who they are, not who you are. Don’t ever sink to their level.

Soon after, held my hands. Looked into my eyes…

And?

The pages continued…

PS: The inverter was on and it made a beep sound. It was charged? Isn’t it? 😉

(De) Light

I saw the same light,
Which lasted with full delight,
Was it the same kite,
Which took the same flight?

I asked the sunlight,
To give me a good site,
It replied with the same sight,
Exactly that of a moonlight.

Our life is full of light,
Still we find the darkness and go for a fight,
Mere shadows govern the same black light,
Tell them, you are one gem that would only shine bright.

Held her hand full tight,
Got a response with a worthy delight,
She whispered slowly and more slowly,
Do you still want the same chocolate bite? 😉

© Nikhil Kundu

Being one

It was all dark here today,

The weather had gone for a toss this day,

Finishing my book this night, hoping for the electricity to remain tight,

There she came amidst this night, asked me how are you holding your sleep this wide.

Amazed to see her sparking eyes all over again,

Astonished and asked her when did she arrived here again,

She reminded me of old times, and waited for the perfect time,

Holding hands together gave me the relief of a comfortable gain.

I’ll love you through the winters, through summers, rains and fog,

I only want to be more us and more growing for you as my favorite job,

I am here again for you, she said; holding you and seeing the stars with your eyes,

Let me be with you for the whole night with the glittery eyes.

You said you love me, I want you to come in and to believe again,

Let me remind you of my previous pain and less comfortable gain,

I had trust, I had faith in us, I did fight for us, I did everything that could be us,

But, who knew, for her, this ‘us’ was just an unnecessary fuss.

She thought, she smiled and she gave a warm hug,

She didn’t want to lose me for an empty jug,

Sat with a glass of RUM this night,

Made sure, I was in her complete mind.

Asked me to not give a single thought on the fishy ones in the relationship,

They would only make no king out of a warship,

May whatever kingdom they carry, is solely in their gene(s) to betray,

To not think of these false types should be our first tray.

I laughed and thought whether in all of this, was I the only suspect,

With a peck on my lips, she said, let me make you all of this forget,

It’s very easy to forget a false person, she said with a strong gut;

I nod my head in agreement, keeping myself shut.

Wearing a face of true love, loyalty, and compassion isn’t easy,

For everyone in the universe to apply, she said.

For how long one will survive with the same traits,

Universe is there for them to reply with the same shades.

Let’s concentrate on our stars this night, she said, looking at my eyes,

For me that was a pure and comfortable delight,

She smiled and asked for a wish, seeing the star,

Draped in a blanket was the smiling moving star.

Copyright © Nikhil Kundu

The Thread

A true relationship is two unperfect couple refusing to give up on each other.

Life is not being famous, rich, popular or perfect. It is about how real you are, humble, loyal and kind.

Rest everything comes cooked up and more pretending with a fake face and dubious personality containing various lies.

Similarly, go for an exercise daily. 😉

What do you seek?

During childhood, we used to hear out many stories related to what our future love should be. We used to imagine how our soulmate should look like (for girls, tall and handsome etc. and for boys, sweet and good looking doll), s/he should do this and that for me, maybe getting the star or moon, or should be like a fairy or a king, and many other beautiful things that can be imagined. It’s so beautiful to rethink all of the set parameters or checks we had since childhood.

As we grow up, we shift to different set of checks and try to modify our type of love with the ‘type of soulmate’ we want. We get more clarity that we shouldn’t depend on physical characteristics of a person whether s/he is tall or short, fat or slim, we shouldn’t see the colour trait of a person, we shouldn’t go with a biased opinion of a ‘yes’ to a complete person with all checks as described above and many other things. In a nutshell, we get more clear on our thoughts and more clear of what we want from the other person. In between all of these, if we don’t get our ‘set parameter’ checked person for the time being, and get only a person who actually loves you but doesn’t fall in your checklist of ‘tall/handsome, sweet doll/cute , a king/queen etc.’, we shouldn’t break his or her 💓, we shouldn’t play with his/her emotions, we shouldn’t make false promises, we shouldn’t cheat/betray on him/her. By, just being selfish and getting away from the person who gave his/her heart to you just by giving reasons which can’t be relished (because, now you have someone else close to your checklist) and doesn’t make you a ‘good’ person with a ‘good’ soul. It directly means, tomorrow, if you see another one more close to your checklist, you’ll again switch. Do you think you can be called as ‘person’ even? Maybe, No. So what do you seek? Maybe a programmable machine who behaves the way you want, as you have no love/emotions/respect for the other person. It’s good to be alone sometimes rather than being with a fake person. Everyone has a heart and a beautiful soul, we should respect that!

We should always clear it out what we want from the person who is in our life until it’s very late (as the other person already built up high emotions and love for you). In my opinion and thoughts, we should always see the soul of a person, the love, his/her behaviour towards you and others, who has emotions filled as that would lead to emotional learning between two of us, more respect, kindness and truthfulness and other things comes secondary. Period. This would not only get you a person who actually loves you with all his/her soul but would also teach you several beautiful dimensions of life and its beauty which would be led by both.

Copyright © Nikhil Kundu

The ‘Us’ Connect

It was a rainy day when I first saw you,

I was wishing for a day just to receive a message from you,

With no connects just to hoping the best,

There was a lucky day when my wish came true and I was at rest.

Holding the wish, I prayed to God,

Never make us fall apart was my chord,

Happy with the chord we both went to the lord,

Who knew that would become a difficult sword.

With every star, again I made a wish,

To cure everything with a 💓 kiss,

We are sure we would fill this jar again with love,

Tells her elephant with a smiling tusk.

She holds her favorite teddy brown and white,

And, wants us to be bonded tight

We oath that we would never let this happen,

With open arms, I, want to make ‘us’ happen.

Copyright © Nikhil Kundu

The warmth

They’d met after a long time, this season, they both were enjoying the weather, the cosiness, maybe they wanted to see each other right next or curling around. They actually missed each other a lot; the warmth and the affection came along. They thought it’s only a few months they are together and now they started feeling each other in the eyes, 💓 and soul. They started wanting each other more and wished for the feeling to not end anyways.

Early morning, without a message he woke up next to her and she made a smile and said “Good morning”, yes, a good morning, was that enough? Yes, for me it was. But, again she made an attempt to curl him up with no space and allowed no light frame to enter. So, was it all dark? Yes. He loved the warmth and felt her next to him. Is this love? You can say so. They both wanted to see each other every moment so well that they actually made an attempt to stick, just like a glue-stick, but here it was more like a caring-stick.

They came more close and discussed everything openly and also felt the warmth when they were low. He was all open to her and she was all ears. There was an affection, love, deep bond and emotional flow between them and they loved every bit of it. Hence, for the person who is your breath you should get yourself completely immersed in the pool of love with him/her and feel the emotions, be more connected, fight for your him/her, just don’t ‘let it go’ for your happiness or for both, it’s completely fine to think sometimes to let go, but tell me do really want to ‘let go’, don’t get convinced by anyone or your mind, there would be many thoughts of letting him/her go because of this or that and end up diverting our mind with other things; which is weak and temporary, but at the end it only matters that ‘s/he is the one for you’, whom you loved at the first place accepting all the odds/negatives/positives. The love could be your blanket in chilly winters when you don’t want to let it go or maybe your love. You might feel the chill in your body or a chill in your love. Don’t let it go!

Now, did I tell you, that, this story happened to be my last night’s dream or a reality or love with my own blanket in the winter season? 🙂

Copyright © Nikhil Kundu

Flowing thoughts

I started my morning with a sip of tea and fresh air amidst the woods, greeting the birds, meeting fellow morning walkers, dogs and cats. There is a sense of belonging when you are immersed with such a surrounding and flow of thoughts.

I saw one of the dogs following me throughout my run. I sat down asking him whether he wanted something but he was constantly looking at me with some hope or sense of care and love. It reminded me of ourselves when we think of a very special person for holding hands and sitting near the cliff discussing everything and then we are left alone. Somewhere or the other it’s lost. Sometimes, being with a person who needs you the most, dreamt of you the most for many things, promised you everything, gave his/her heart in your hands, is the person you should be with irrespective of whatever things happen, at the end of the day s/he is ‘yours’ and only ‘yours’. In general, for a better and fruitful friendship/love/relationship in every phase, as seen, experienced and also heard from others, the five repeating words, loyalty, non-cheating, not being altruistic, staying truthful and non-betraying behaviour comes everytime and is truly accepted and loved in the sense of soul satisfaction but if you find/think any of these ‘not’ existing or any opposites then talk about it; if you get a negation, just let them think themselves these questions, maybe in seclusion, that, are they actually good as a ‘person’ first to do all of these, just for a mere change/altruism/some modern behaviour? Does the inner soul with which they once loved, maybe, gives them freedom to treat the emotions of other person like this?

Once a behaviour of leaving others like this, is always a behaviour. If one ever loved/considered you as a life partner at the first place, they wouldn’t consider you as a stranger at the first place. Did they ever loved you? Believe in yourself and pour more and more positive thoughts in you. You are very good and a true person. There are very less persons out here in the planet who actually put up so much for you, don’t ever leave ’em because of any reasons. Remember, if you truly care/love a person, their mistakes never ever change your feelings, it’s only the mind which gets angry and forces decisions but your heart always care and loves. Discuss and discuss for a solution. Things can be worked out well and with happiness and we should forgive.

Similarly, ‘we’ in the nature should think more and more about protecting the trees and animals they also have feelings and emotions. We should keep our environment clean so as to pour and get fresh air, clean surroundings, more happiness to everyone.

I believe, each one of us should go for a morning walk to keep himself or herself fit and active as getting up early morning not only triggers your neural net inside your mind for the rest of the day but also fills you with immense energy to carry out other tasks wearing a warm smile. These morning air not only fills you with positivity but also nourishes your cells throughout.

Copyright © Nikhil Kundu

Kitna asaan tha…

Kitna asaaan tha Bhool jaana uske liye,
Mere liye toh sab kuch wahi hai,
Ishq jiski ibaadat dono he karte the ,
Uske liye wo ishq he na raha ,
Milta bhi kya usse ki; uske paas waqt he na raha.

Unn likhe panno ki gehraai se kaise muh mod du,
Par fir uski zubaan ko kaise peeche chor du,
Wo keh kar toh aayi thi na jaane ko kabhi,
Lekin wo jaa baithi na aane ko kabhi.

Beshumaar ishq barasta hai ab bhi uski likhai mein,
Kaise maan lu ki ateet ki gehrai mein
Jo hai nahi, usse wo dikha
Jo dekhna tha wo usse dikha nahi kabhi…

Kitna asaan tha…

Copyright © Nikhil Kundu